“Dr. Beck, I know I used to hate coming to see you but now I’m really happy about it.”

This statement was made by a fifteen year old who has always resented having a serious mental health problem. It’s a good thing I was wearing a mask or he would have noticed that my mouth was open for a long time.

“I cannot believe you’re saying that. You are actually happy to be seeing a psychiatrist.”

“Are you laughing at me?” Big brown eyes narrow and glare at me suspiciously.

I cannot help it. I start to laugh.

“You are laughing at me.”

“I can’t help it,” I say, “You just get so suspicious. Why are you happy to see a psychiatrist?”

“When other black kids get picked up by the cops, they get taken to detention and it’s bad there. I get taken to the mental hospital and it ain’t so bad here.”


I am learning more about privilege every day.

(This beautiful art is the creation of Akilah Johnson from Washington D.C. You can read more about the art and her here.

2 thoughts on “My COVID-19 Journal – Day 80

  1. esther templin says:

    I can only say WOW to this blog and this 15 year old.

    1. drgailbeck says:

      I agree Esther, but is this what we’ve come to? I hope you’re keeping well.

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