In my last moments as Chair of the Ontario Medical Association Board, I thought of the five remarkable doctors, my former colleagues on the Executive Committee ,who have been my inspiration for the past six months. They embody the compassion, devotion and civility that epitomize physician leadership. I have learned so much from them.
Like my colleagues, despite having Council’s confidence to continue personally, I found the vote of nonconfidence in the Executive Committee in general to be extremely troubling. As much as I want to assist in mending the divisions within the Ontario Medical Association, I believe that the best thing I can do is to assist as a Board member for a few more months. The past six months have also taken a toll on those who care most about me and my clinical work so I feel it is important to attend to the interests of my family and my patients.
I am first and foremost a doctor and nothing is more satisfying to me than watching the life come back into a young person’s face as their depression lifts. I am inspired by the clinicians that I work with in my hospital and my community. The doctors and nurses, psychologists, social workers and other clinicians in my hospital keep me grounded in what is most important in medicine. They are amazing.
In ten years of medical politics, I have learned that I am not a politician. I can’t learn the lines or follow the cues. As too many people tell me, I cannot keep my facial expressions under control. If I have had any success, it is because I am persistent. It is because my efforts to be tolerant and gracious and kind have occasionally been successful. It is because, having always worked with youth, I have learned not to take my self too seriously.
The picture below is my favourite picture of me in OMA service. This was taken last November with Ontario’s medical student leaders. On the days when I have the most worries about where we are headed, I think about these doctors-in-training and I am reassured. If the work I have done for the Ontario Medical Student Bursary Fund and Physician Human Resources have had an impact for one young doctor, then my time at the OMA Board has been well spent and I leave with a light heart.
(Photo credit: OMSBF)